Thursday, November 18, 2004
~ Love at First Sight

So today I was sittin in the car goin to work... and the traffic from Renton was merging into our lane... and I saw this guy... and he saw me... and we stared at each other for a minute... and I smiled... and then he had to get behind us... and I couldnt move... I was enthralled... So then he was going towards like sea-tac and we were going towards seattle, so he got in the other lane and passed us... as he lookeded at me and I lookeded at him... and then he was gone... I want him soooo badd. If it were only me in the car, or me and my friends, I would have totally wrote my number on a piece of paper and held it up to my window... but you know what... he was probablly just staring at me because I had something on my face or something. OMG though! Sooooo amazingly fucking hott and a half times + 1 point six. He looked kinda like Matt Long who is extemely hott! I want him soooo bad... More than I have wanted anyone before... EVER!!!

So I have been on downward spiral for the last two weeks. Since Halloween weekend... First I couldnt decide who I wanted to go out with... and I thought about it for a while... and I really didnt want any of them. (BUT the guy in the car today... I want him FO SHO!) So now Nina is going out with the last one... that I didnt even consider going out with... I think it is quite amusing. Then last week I decided I wanted this guy named John that is in my English class... I was going to write him a little note that told him to call me sometime or something like that... but then I decided that I didnt want him either. AHHHH!!!! This has been a long and hard journey... I am still alone and I want some guy that I saw on the freeway... WTF! There is something wrong there.

So then, I went to a "party" at Brandon's house the week after the halloween thing. It was kinda boring, but yeah. Then I was paranoid that everyone was madd at me, because everyone seemed to be madd at me and they were madd at the person I was hanging around... so yeah. Apparently nobody was madd at me, but I still dont believe themm. So on Saturday... I ateeeee alll day long. And then that night I got drunk. Origionally, I was just going to have a little bit of Kahlua with my ice cream... but I poured extremely wayyyy tooo much kahlua into my cup... then Andrew decided to get home right when I was going to put it back in the bottle... so that wasnt going to work... thus I had to drink as much as I could as fast as I could... well that hit me hard like ten minutes later lol. The kahlua with the ice cream was really good though. That is what has been keeping me sane for the last two weeks. It tastes sooooooo good that it makes you temporarily happy... until it is gone... then it is sad.

Another badd thing about it is it makes you fatttt. I have gotten really fatt in the last two weeks... and I acquired OCED (Obsessive Compulsive Eating Disorder.) I wasnt able to stop eating once I started... even when I was stuffed and wanted to stop eating. It was badd. So after my already badd week... I got fattttt, which made it worse... THENNNNN my dad's parents decided they wanted to come visit! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! That drove me off the edge. I didnt feel like doing anything, but sitt there and watch movies... so thats what I planned on doing last Saturday... I was going to go to Jayme's party, but I decided against it and then Nina was trying to get me to go to her house, but I didnt want to do that either. Then around 7, Nichole called me and wanted me to go to Jaymes party... So I changed my mind again and went... I couldnt stay, so I was limited to 1 tequilla shott at her FIESTA! It was a funn party, a bitt boring, but funn.

I am sick and tired of my online class. I actually studied for the last test and I got the worst grade on any of the tests so farr. It is just tooooo much for me. AHHHHH!

I was at Nina's yesterday because I needed to hang out with someone before I had a breakdown. So she has the Pimp Bear (which is a giant ass teddy bear) and he is really dirty, so we decided we shud take him to the dry cleaners. They wouldnt clean him because he was tooooo big. Too Bad, So Sad! So we drove around with him becuase we thought it was funny. We buckled him upp and everything and then we stuck his arm out the window. It is great!!!!!!!

I watched Beauty and the Beast yesterday. It is so much sadder than I remember. It is still my favorite Disney movie... along with the Lion King! I think I like Beauty and the Beast so much because I was always very similar to Belle and I always wanted to be like her... pretty, funnishness, pretty, there is something about her that I cant really describe too (like her grace or something) AND shes pretty... It almost made my eyes get watery when he said she was free to go save her "papa." awwwww... and then at the end where he "dies" awwwwww... he is not a very handsome prince though... I think he might look better as a beast... lol.

Work was funn today. I got over my super extra unhappyness... ever since I saw the guy in the red truck I have been happy... Thus I have beenable to stop eating so I can become unfatt again! YAY!!!! Work was funn today! I signed up for classes... so I must take a leave of absence from X5 and work at one of our competitors/customers/family owned company lol.

Another thing that has lead me on my way to being happy is SHOPPING! kinda... I got my hair cuttt short on Tuesday. I am working on trying to get contacts and I was going to wait until I got contacts to get my hair cutt, but my hair looked like shitt on Tuesday so I decided to just go and get it cutt! It looks good. I will post a picture when I take one. lol. Then today I went and bought shoes. I dont know if I like one of the pairs I bought... I might take them back and get like Vans or something. I dunno yett.

Anyways.. I am happy now and doing pretty well... though I cant stop listening to Disney music (because I thought that would cure my unhappiness) or thinking about that guy... He has taken over me and I saw him for like a minute... this is crazy! Oh! I scored the new Eminem CD - Encore!!!!!! its fanstasmorgasmic, just like the hotttt guy! I recommend picking up the CD at your local Sam Goody HAHAHAH! OH and I am GReaT like frosted Flakes! HAHAHAHA I "made that up" today when I was talking to Ashley! hahahah.

I cannot decide what color contacts to get... blue or green... two people have said blue and two people have said green today... I will eventually get both if I can take sticking them in my eye... which still groses me out, but if they dont talk about it... I think I can handle it now! So if you would like to help me choose the color to get first... PLEASE DO! OHHHH I also got a Magic 8 Ball! I always wanted one and I have like an electronic one and it glows and is pretty cool but I wanted an original and I got one! WooT!

I also saw the Incredibles and the preview for EPISODE 3!!!!!!! I have been waiting since like 3 years ago... or maybe 2... Anyways... I cant wait until JULY!!!!!! YAY! and the Incredibles was INCREDIBLEiscous! YAY! EVeryonE should definately go and see it. YAY!

OHHHH! Last Friday, Nina, Kyle and I went to the "park/playground." Then I was going to take Sarah to the ice skating rink and they were gonna come, but Nina, Kyle and I just went to the family fun center and played laser tag. Then we went to the Olive Garden and bowling. It was funn stuff. I dropped the ball again, like behind me. It was funny. But after I dropped it, I started bowling better. lol. I did worse than I ever had before though. lol. On the first game I got 13 and on the 2nd game i got like 42 or 43. I got 2 strikes on the second game, both after the ball fell behind me. HAHAHAHA!

Welp... that all I can remember from the last three weeks. wow... that was a lot of rambling. I am very sorry for any discomfort you felt while reading this post. If any side effects occur in the next half an hour, contact your doctor immediately. Ya'll take care! GOOD NIGHT NEW YORK!

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